51 Fabulous Trust

“We trust because of His abilities, not ours!”   

I almost titled this post “Doubt” due to a recent dip of discouragement; but then I came across the above quote scribbled in my journal from one of those “awaken in the night” writing moments. While half asleep, I had titled the quote “Fabulous Trust” so today I write about trust instead.   

   

Trust is not fabulous unless the source is from outside of ourselves. Trust comes to me from the One who helps my heart sigh in peace when all seems impossible. I do not quiet my frantic doubt nor settle my disturbed mind, God does.   

   

This reality struck me anew as I have reeled from the Writers’ Conference I attended over the weekend. I spent hours listening to modern-day Renaissance writers who have developed their craft into thriving businesses by doing it all!   

   

Their workshops captivated me and I found myself day dreaming of working fulltime at the demanding, all-consuming tasks of today’s modern writer: writing, editing, speaking, marketing….the list goes on. So many of them inspired me, Kathi Lipp and her husband really got me thinking about my future marketing plan. B.J. Taylor provoked thoughts about joining a writers’ group and sending out article submissions. Yet when I returned home, the reality of my fulltime career brought on an episode of doubt as I wondered how I could ever do all that was required.   

   

I doubted whether I had what it takes to grow into a published writer. I doubted my identity as a blogger. I doubted my destiny.   

   

Then I returned to the classroom and the doubt didn’t have time to possess my mind any longer. My dreariness drizzled as a steady stream of students knocked at my door before school, during classes, and at lunch. Their frantic requests for using my technology resources came because they do not have computers, the internet, printers, or ink at home; these are crucial for completing required academic projects:   

“Mrs. Luna, can I use one of your computer to do my science project because I don’t have a computer at home.”   

“Mrs. Luna, can you help me to do research for my credit retrieval projects. I need this to graduate and I don’t have a computer at home.”   

“Mrs. Luna, can I use your computer to do my social studies project and can my friend come in and do hers too?”   

I drove home thinking, “How can I ever leave this job when there is so much need? Maybe God made me a creative eclectic because He knew that was the best way I could inspire so many different youth. Maybe my destiny includes providing the resources these disadvantaged youth need in order to fulfill theirs!”   

Preparing youth for the 21st Century

 

If this new perspective parted the clouds of depression, the rainbow came with a tribute from a fellow blogger, Dianne, whose talent causes my heart to sing. Like Dianne, I love watercolor painting, making cards, and gardening…I also have lavender growing outside my door.   

   

Dianne’s words provoked deep emotions and pondering. I shared her post with my daughter, Andy, and Dianne’s description of trying to hold onto all of her creative loves, “like a child clutching fistfuls of crayons, I can’t possibly decide which one I could let go of.” inspired Andy to draw her a picture. Select this picture link below to access her post.   

Inspired by Dianne's words and created by Andy Luna

 

So now I feel that familiar unrest that says “there is something more.” I choose to let doubt have its dastardly way because daring to ask the questions eventually brings the answers. We pray and then wait and in time the answers come. As we trust in God’s abilities, clusters of gifting grow up and out of the granite rock of doubt. Those unique to us.  

  

“No, I may never be a famous writer, public speaker, or business genius, but I know one thing for sure; I can have fabulous trust, not because of my abilities but because of His!  

If you are in that “in between place” of waiting to hear the next step of your destiny reveal, I would love to hear from you. If you are bold enough to leave a comment, I will gladly respond.

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About JoDee Luna

“I’m lost in a love affair with portrait painting!” JoDee Luna confesses. This author, artist, and educator describes herself as a creative eclectic due to her diverse history, multiple talents, and various career pursuits. She enjoys a host of creative expressions: mixed media, mask making, floral designing, photography, sculpture, and gardening. JoDee believes the creative process infuses her with the courage to try on new artistic identities, take inspired risks, and explore imaginative ideas. She seeks to share her insights with others through her book, Refrain from the Identical: Insight and Inspiration for Creative Eclectics and website by the same name, http://refrainfromtheidentical.com. Both provide helpful tips and inspiration for artistic multi-taskers, those who enjoy various forms of artistic expression.
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10 Responses to 51 Fabulous Trust

  1. Cheri says:

    Try not to get discouraged. What I take away from the conference is that it is a lot of hard work to be a writer and there is a lot to the business that most people don’t realize. But you are already doing a lot of these things and very close to your goal. Can’t wait to see your FIRST book.

    • JoDee Luna says:

      Thank you for your encouragement. It helps knowing you heard the same things as I did. On an upbeat, I am going to a writers’ group this Saturday. I’m excited!

  2. Herding Cats says:

    I feel as though I am in an “in-between” spot right now with careers. Still waiting to know where I will teach next year and what my path will be. I just know that, like you, teaching is definitely what I want to be doing.

    • JoDee Luna says:

      When will you find out about next year’s assignment? I’m interested to know what happens. Thank you for posting your honest thoughts. It helps me to put my thoughts and feelings out there.

  3. gerknoop says:

    Well…my BFF….you KNOW I am in that “in between spot”! LOL
    We are waiting together!
    Love you dearly, and I love this post. You go girl! Barbie 🙂

  4. marcys says:

    These writer/entrepreneurs who’ve made careers out of teaching, marketing, writing how-to books, etc, are very different from the historical image and reality of writers. In my own lifetime I have witnessed the change, and I find it distressing. The writer’s psychological makeup is directly opposite from that of a person who enjoys a life of hustling and self-promotion. I don’t think we are likely to see books such as Les Miserables or To Kill a Mockingbird or Wuthering Heights coming out of this new breed. I have no idea if you’re a good writer, but I do sense that you’re the kind of person who is more likely to produce something worth reading.

    • JoDee Luna says:

      Your comment left me speechless and with much to ponder. You identified what has deeply troubled me when you contrasted “the writer’s psychological makeup” with “this new breed” of writers. My writing grew in seclusion and now I face the reality of a current market that demands an extensive platform to secure a publishing contract. So I wonder where the root of the problem really lies…in those hustling or a public who no longer appreciates books such as “Les Miserables or To Kill a Mockingbird or Wuthering Heights.”

  5. marcys says:

    Yes, that’s also true: the number of serious readers get fewer and fewer every year. Fewer and fewer good novels are printed every year. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? The situation is a result of a whole confluence of circumstances having to do with greed and the money-making machine and cultural values, plus of course new technologies. Keep pondering: you’re bound to figure out where and how to fit in to this un-brave new un-literary world.

    • JoDee Luna says:

      I see the results of these cultural and technological changes in the struggling literacy students I teach in my literacy classes. It’s like a brain morph is occuring; and yet, when they finally learn how to read, they become obsessed with reading novels. Maybe this is my small contribution to this, as you penned it, “un-brave new un-literary world.” I am interested to know how you have reconciled this with your own writing ambitions. What direction are you headed?

  6. izziedarling says:

    The ability to read is a gift; the ability to write is a Major Blessing. You keep on pushing through – your writing and what you have to say is beautiful on serious subjects, hilarious on the insane. 🙂

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