“The heart seeds desires long before we whisper prayers!”
Have you ever noticed that a longing for something more precedes change? A restlessness and indescribable pull takes you in a direction before you understand what is happening. I have noted this reoccurring pattern in my creative life; a notion for a new art form plants inside my mind and begins to grow under the surface of conscious thought.
Another signal of change is an unexpected incentive to clear away clutter and organize supplies. This is similar to what happens when my husband and I envision a new garden plot. We pull out the old plants, hoe the weeds, and clear the area long before we have a clue as to what the new project will look like.
This desire seeded in early February of 2009 and I did not actually build the site until December, 2010, ten months later. I wrote this poem while trying to reconcile feelings of loss from leaving my former life overseas. This brings up another sign that something new is coming; often we first grieve the old we must leave behind. Here is the poem followed by an excerpt that especially caught my attention because these ideas become a reality since the writing of them:
I am as one grown mute
Puzzle piece of destiny lost
Gaping hole so noticeable
Where voice of hope once snugly fit
Taken from my purpose
In foreign lands of soul to dwell
No longer free to share my faith
Good tidings spoken without restraint
Restore my voice oh God
Return the call to speak your name
Empowered by your Spirit’s love
An oracle released from shame
“My life’s ambitions fill with possibilities and yet reality stands as a cruel taskmaster over my affairs. It taunts, “You only have so much time!” Daily I need to prioritize in order to stay focused..
The quest on the horizon whispers through morning writings while growing in my heart; the emergence of a website housing a plethora of resources for other creative eclectics. I envision inspirational writings, artistic projects, and digital designs. Posting the inspirational words and creative works of others as well…Most importantly, I hope this site will restore my lost voice…”
I wrote these words from a place of vulnerability and yet excitement.
I vividly remember the preparation needed as I cleared away activities, churned the soil of my soul, and learned new blogging skills. A definite invitation appeared long before those prayers flowed forth.
I began with an entrance into the world of social networking through Facebook in the summer, which was very difficult for me. I had been in seclusion from former friends spanning childhood through to present. The next seeding of creative desire occured when I read ”Artful Blogging” for the first time during last year’s summer vacation. The articles and photographs incited a creative frenzy that resulted in this seemingly crazy idea to have a personal blog.
From there the personal blog started in September.
These past two weeks have resulted in full bloom with the privilege of featuring the creativity of my family and friends on my creativity site.
I do not know where this path of destiny will take me, but follow I must.
So if some unexplainable pull is spurring you to clean, clear, and organize, go for it…your heart is seeding a creative destiny!